I do my thing and you do your thing
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
and you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you and I am I and if by chance we find each other,
it’s beautiful. ~ Gestalt Prayer
I have been doing a lot of reading lately and I guess you can say some soul searching in other writer’s words in hopes to find whatever it is that I am looking for because I am not satisfied with the life that I got…the life that I have found.
I have always had high expectations for my family, my friends and myself. However, there came a time in my life where everyone including myself was a great disappointment, because they did not live up to my expectations. It came to a point in my life where I decided not have any expectations anymore.
I found it easier, easier to expect nothing, to make no claim to my hopes, to my dreams, to my relationships, to my friendships or to me. Because when you expect for your hopes and dreams to come true or for a friendship or a relationship to be successful and none of these expectations are ever met for one reason or another, if you expect nothing…and you get nothing…well no one will know when you are disappointed and you won’t be disappointed.
You can feel nothing knowing that you never “put yourself out there”. There is no record of what you wanted, no way for anyone to know that you have been let down. No one gets hurt…you do not get hurt!!!
I am so sick and tired of never feeling anything. I finally came to realization that I do want to have expectations. Maybe it is naive of me to expect things, but I want to expect things out of life, out of my family, my friends, out of me, out of you. I choose to live my life believing that GREAT acts will happen. It is expecting people to be AWESOME and that makes me AWESOME!!!
Therefore, if my expectations are not met today there is always tomorrow, and then the next, and then the next, and then the next…
