Champagne Sunday’s: Writing Under the Influence…

 

 

“Once you quit taking yourself so seriously, only then will you begin to LIVE your life.”

 

This quote forever haunts my mind amongst others.  One night my “Bestie” Honeyflea and I went on a midnight adventure.  Remember when you were younger and could see your own breath while you were standing at the bus stop, but because you were a kid, the cold never stopped you from ANYTHING!!! Well it was one of those freezing cold nights where nothing was going to get in our way of fun. 

 

“The easel of opportunity is the reality that when you go in reverse you’re really turning back around and heading towards childhood.  F*CK GROWING UP…I can’t wait to wear diapers again!!!”

 

On our adventure, we met some interesting people who were completely intrigued by us.  Instead of having a typical nite of drunken shenanigans, we decided to take my writers notebook out for a nite on the town. Instead of talking, we choose to share our thoughts by writing instead.

 

“Truth bleeds on paper and there is so much power in words but only when you have a pen.”

 

Throughout the nite, the people who were intrigued by us wanted to partake in our social experiment.  However, in order to do so, a free beer needed to be given to the poetic Matriarchs, Honeyflea and Ethel (I really want a better nickname).  After about 12 free beers, we were so numb to the riggamaroll that was surrounding us; we decided to leave the library of eclectic personalities and went to a friend’s house.  To much riff raff and loss of brain cells, we decided to end our nite shortly thereafter. 

 

In the morning, I woke up and began to read all the stolen thoughts of others who probably do not remember writing under the influence.  I thought I would share some of their thoughts with you.  I look forward to many more nites of partaking in the creative curiosity of the thing called life.  With that said, I leave you with one of my favorite quotes:

 

“So let’s all get high and talk about life cuz that is all we have to make us feel ALIVE…Life isn’t forever or so you once said, so lets stop talking and LIVE instead!!!”

Champagne Sunday’s: Stolen Thoughts…

 

As time goes by, sometimes you listen to what your friends say about you.  You might not let them think or know that you are actually pondering the thoughts they usually so freely toss your way. I prefer to over-think and over-analyze everything they say.

 

Take one I hear often.  “Controlling”

And you know, over the years…you have tried to work that out, you become more adventurous, more spontaneous, more AMAZING so you can say…”I am most definitely not controlling!!!”

 

Nevertheless, I just wonder.  Maybe I really am controlling because I am terrified.  I like to control my life so much because I am so afraid to live life and fear repeating the past.

 

I really probably most definitely think that I am terrified of finding someone and falling in love again.  That is why I can come up with a million and one reasons not to date.

 
Part of me really does long for that something more.  And then the other half of me remembers that… It almost possesses you, takes you over, you have to talk to them now, text them now, see them now.  (WE all know there is so much more that you have to do than that.)

 

And in the end…well it always ends.

 

But there is something about walking in and facing the deepest fear you could ever face and still walk out of the room alive…Okay crawl out… 

 

I guess you wait for that person where prying your hands off the stearing wheel and giving up control does not seem so much the risk. It’s to be blinded and tossed about and before you know it you are back in love again.

 

Maybe it is about trusting yourself, that in life, in landing, you will be okay.

 

Maybe it is about making a decision to move, to feel, to try and going for it.  Whole heart…Whole Leap!!!

 

And maybe it is just about being all in and facing the next moment just as it comes, letting go of the control and allow youself to live life without fear and if you happen to fall…well at least have a friend that will help you up to try it all over again!!!