Well who knew that it would happen so soon! I sure as hell did not. Actually, I have been avoiding it like the bubonic plaque. I have tried keeping things surface, never letting anyone in my little bubble to get to know the “real me” and if someone got a little to close for comfort, I would push them away as far as possible. It is just easier this way. Well at least for me. (I know I am a little EMO.) My friends always say that I just have to take a chance and jump in with both feet and screw bringing a life jacket. Therefore, I did…and it happened…I have gone and fallen in love!
I do not even know how it happened. I mean he looks like the Incredible Hulk and loves the color pink. I do have high standards and my future lover MUST possess the following things in no particular order:
- Exceptional taste in music. I want someone who can teach me a thing or two and vice versa.
- Own sense of style. Someone who maintains individualism and own sense of self.
- NON-SMOKER…I did not say non-toker…
- Someone who values friends and family as much as I do…just because I love you does not mean we need to spend every waking moment together. I need equal balance.
- Must be my B.F. I know no one wants to play the “Best Friend” card…but for the long haul, a strong foundation of friendship is what will ultimately lead to a long and happy relationship.
Believe it or not, it is very difficult to find someone who has all 5 of these qualities. Some have come close, but they were all chameleons.
How do I know it is love? Well initially, I knew because of my emotions that were evoked when I thought of him or when I was around him. I would sweat profusely, sometimes stutter and at times, it felt as if I was on a rollercoaster. Plus, the tell tale sign, “The Butterflies”. Once I got over the emotions that I was experiencing, I had to sit back and over analyze EVERYTHING. Here was someone who loved me unconditionally. Was always there when I needed him, switched gears whenever I wanted and even if I was having the worst day ever, it never failed that he would put a smile on my face and boost my spirit.
He has reshaped my body and my soul. I can always count on him through thick and thin. He loves my quirkiness, does not mind my singing and for the first time in a long time I feel safe when I am with him. He has definitely filled the void that I have been experiencing these past few years.
It is a scary thing to fall in love…I am still a little apprehensive about it and every once in awhile I freak out a little bit and end up wanting to take a different path…he always goes with me and keeps me on track. He never gets jealous when I hang out with my boys and always makes sure I make it home safely. It is true…3rd time is a charm…
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- My True Love Way
